Thursday, September 1, 2011

You may say to yourself, "My God! What have I done!?"

Okay, I'll let you in on a not-really-a-secret: I hate being online.  Don't get me wrong, I love being on the internet, secretly, stealthily searching through all the news, blogs, and pictures without leaving a trace of myself.  I don't Facebook.  I don't tweet.  I certainly never blogged.  And I'm not saying this with pride.  I could tell you that there was this big academic reason about sense of self, of seperation from a cyber existence.  I could preach about privacy.  I could just say that Facebook is creepy (which it is, but so am I).

Kerry: do you have facebook?
Me: haha no
Kerry: me neither
Me: i boycott that stuff
Kerry: it's stupid, i don't get it
Me: i do, however, know maggie's passsword
Kerry: i do, however, know theresa's

Really, at the end of the day, the truth is that being online and actually available and accessible makes me nervous in a way for which they definitely prescribe medicine.  And that was fine for a while, when it was limited to Facebook anxiety, but the older I'm getting the more introverted I become, and there needs to be a limit.   

Me: then again, i do have a tendency to hide away from my roommates
√Čamonn: I'm having trouble shaking this image of you as Gollum

So I'm shaking it off!  This blog is 100% about me, which all blogs ultimately are (not about me-- although they should be-- but about the author), and in my particular case it's about getting myself "out there" and also getting myself writing.  I hate to give a roadmap of where this blog is going, because the truth is, I don't know, but I sure do hope that I will write not just about myself, but about books and television and culture and how edible the Stay Puft Marshmallow Man really was and stuff like that. It's all really important.

David told me yesterday that he was worried about me becoming "too nerdy."  I asked him to cite his sources.  He pointed out that I just got upset that I would have to hang out with someone this weekend instead of just reading all day, and that I had recently googled "how to be a science fiction writer."

But I mean, everyone writes Neil Gaiman fanfic, right?

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